Sunday, March 28, 2010

progress not perfection

March 21, 2010
Weight 156 #
Waist 38"
Hips 39"
Bust 40"
Bicep 14"
Neck 14"
Thigh 21"

March 28, 2010
Weight 154.5 (-1.5#) YEAH!!!!
Waist 37" (-1") YEA!!!!!
Hips 39" (same)
Bust 40" (same)
Biceps 14" (same)
Neck 14" (same)
Thigh 21" (same)

Ok, so I didn't set the world on fire this week but, I did light a match. I'm proud of my success. I had a couple of days where I did not track my points :( but, I did have 5 days that I DID track my points :). Thank you Weight Watchers, Dr. Oz, and Dr. Roizen for getting me through the "slip ups" and bringing me back to my tracking. I WILL NOT beat myself up over my imperfections. They are just trials that I face each and every day, as do we all. I try everyday to remind myself that this is my life. It's not a reality TV program. I will make mistakes. I will have "slip ups". I will want treats that are probably less than healthy for me and that is OK. I will plan the best I can. I will make the next available "YOU-TURN" when things are not as they should be in my eating and exercise program.

So, Easter is coming up next week. I'm trying to focus on the big picture. I mean really, Easter is for us to celebrate the risen Christ. Sometimes I forget that the holiday doesn't exist solely for me to stuff my face and drink too much wine. Who knew??? Anyway, I plan to eat too much. Yeah you heard me. I am planning to over eat on Easter. You ask "how can you plan to over eat and call this a success?" Well, I do. I plan to save my activity points and my flex points. I plan to eat what I want so that I do not feel deprived. But, most of all, I plan that when Easter dinner is over,
it is over. As my previous Weight Watcher leader once told me, "It is a HoliDAY, not a HoliWEEK!" This is so true. This is where I have messed up in the past. So, I am planning to prevent this. I WILL make the next available YOU-Turn and get back on track. Not on Monday morning after Easter but, right after my Easter meal. I know that if I say I will not eat any of the high calorie high points foods for Easter that I will set myself up to fail. This is what sends me into that crazy tailspin of negative self talk and beating myself up for who I am. You know, you have done it too...."what's the use?", "my body was just meant to be fat." "i cant stick with anything so, why bother" blah blah blah. I promise not to bore you with the whole list. I have many and they can get kinda harsh on me. So, I will spare us all. Today, I choose HEALTHY!

Again, progress, not perfection.

Love, Peace, and don't cook with Grease,

Dawn :)

Sunday, March 21, 2010

embarrassed....

Yeah, I am. I am embarrassed that I have no weight loss to report since January. I have actually gained 3 pounds. Sadness! I'm sad because I let my weight embarrass me. I'm sad that I haven't posted for fear of embarrassment. Now, after typing that I'm embarrassed that I let my weight control me. NO MORE! I control me. Here it is. I make mistakes and bad choices at times. I have no need to be embarrassed over it. This journey is all about that. It's about encouragement, giving and receiving. It's about being human. It's about this weight journey that many of us face. I WILL help others by first helping myself.

so, here it is. I'm putting it all out there.


Height 5' 3/4" (hoping i have a few years before this changes)
Weight 156 #
Waist 38"
Hips 39"
Bust 40"
I thought I was an apple shape. Uh, I'm seeing that I am more of a rectangle :)
Bicep 14"
Neck 14"
Thigh 21"

There it is. The good, the bad, and the ugly. It's all me :)

Praise God, and thanks to all my friends and family who support me!

Love, Peace, and don't cook with Grease,

Dawn