New Years Eve 2009...Resolution!

This year instead of vowing that I am going to be a size 3 by next week or lose 20 pounds in two days (OK yeah I realize both of those things are impossible, that's my point! I WILL NOT set myself up to fail.) I am vowing to make better, healthier choices. That is it. If I lose weight and waist along the weigh(yeah I know that's the wrong spelling. It's a pun silly) then great, because I definitely need to. If I don't, I will embrace the healthy choices that I do make. This is a journey. It's a process. It is not a race. It is me. It is my life. It IS how I will become HEALTHIER.

I am prepared! and for this I would like to thank Dr. Oz and Dr. Roizen. I will not always make perfect choices for my healthier lifestyle, and this is OK. However, when I do make a choice that is not in the best interest of my health, I WILL follow the YOU DIET MANTRA:

"AT THE NEXT AVAILABLE MOMENT, MAKE AN AUTHORIZED YOU-TURN"

Mistakes are OK, and I am expected to make them. I will love myself through them.

OK, so I am almost finished with the book and the CD's. Well, finished reading and listening to the for the first time. I have a feeling I will come to cherish these tools.

So, stay tuned, tomorrow I will post my weight, my waist, and my menu.

Happy a happy, healthy, and blessed New Year :)

Love, Peace, and don't cook with Grease

Dawn

"you on a diet" got the book......

OK, so today i picked up the book from the library. i not only got the book but, i got the book on CD's so that i can listen to them on my way to and from work. somethings bound to stick right? ok, so i was really disappointed that it wasn't Dr. oz or Dr. Roizen speaking on the CD but, i guess i will survive. i will just change the voice in my head to be one of theirs :) wow, voices in my head! i really do sound like a nut job.

anyway, getting back on track. i started listening on the way home from the library. so, as I'm listening i hear in the first 14 days i will lose 2 inches around my waist. i then think, i cant do this for 2 weeks because Christmas is during that. here i go again planning my failure. so, what i think i will do, is to start reading and see where it goes from there.

Dr. oz, Dr. Roizen, where are you? i need a push. i need your help. i know i can do this. again, so it begins.......

Love, Peace, and don't cook with Grease :)

ugh i think i need doctor oz!

OK.....so the first week is over and not so great. well, i will chalk this up to a learning curve maybe? or I will just be honest and say that Holiday goodies, emotional eating, bad choice for date night and a church carry in got the best of me. so, i have learned but, i have also gained a pound. i will not be discouraged and i WILL NOT give up. I will succeed at this. calling Dr. oz, come in Dr. oz. i think i need you!!!!

so, the next week begins. My goal is to maintain this week. I am trying to be realistic as i race through the Christmas season with all its festivities. yes, that is it, i will maintain but, i WILL continue to exercise and make the next right choice.

love, peace, and chicken grease :)
dawn

Wow, this week has just flown by. Tomorrow is my first (again!) weigh in. Although, I have definitely made some food faux pas I am still excited to weigh in. Uh yeah, you heard me right; I am EXCITED to weigh in. I made some definite mistakes and I will learn from them. HA! a new fresh start. That is how I will look at my blunders and unhealthy choices. Just for today, I will look forward and make the next step count.

I have already learned something about myself this week. I fill out countless “diet” interview questionnaires to see what style fits me best. Well, I always say that I am NOT an emotional eater. WRONG! I am. There you have it. The cat is out of the bag. What the heck, the cat is not only out of the bag; it is on a blog on the internet for all to know. So there, now you know. I, Dawn, am an emotional eater. So you ask, “Dawn, how do you know this?” Well, let me tell you. As I sit here with terrible heartburn from last nights non emotional eating. My daughter came in for a surprise visit from New York late Thursday night and she had to leave last night. Yeah, she was only able to stay for 24 hours because she has finals to take on Monday and she had to drive 10 hours here and 10 hours back to college. Now you see why it was such a surprise and a whirlwind of a time. So, she had to go back. And I sat and shared a plate of Christmas Cookies with Steve. Yeah it was Steve’s fault. He is my partner in crime. He totally coerced me into this. I mean as I went out into the cold garage to the refrigerator out there (this is where I put the cookies so that I would stay out of them) I knew it was Steve that was making me do this. I mean when I go up and asked him if he wanted some cookies because I was going to get me some I knew then he was to blame. Hehehe so here I sit with heartburn, the elated happiness of having had my daughter here, the sadness that she had to go, and Steve to blame for all of this. Ok, so obviously it was my fault and not Steve’s (but, lets not tell him that just yet!) that I made the bad food choice and used cookies to deal with my emotions, so, win, lose, or draw when I weigh in tomorrow I WILL NOT be disappointed because, in all of this, I have learned.

So, just for now, I will make the next right choice.

Love, Peace, and don't cook with Grease :)

the beginning of the new me :)

Today I was getting ready for church and even with the help of Spanx, could not fit into my pants. I'm not going to say what size they are, not that i'm embarrassed about it but, because it doesn't matter. I don't want to turn anyone off with a size or a number just yet. I want to focus on HEALTHY and POSITIVE thinking. This is so new for me. I love saying negative things about myself. I figure if I say something negative and point it out, then no one can hurt me with it. Anyway, now that I have rambled on for a bit and completely forgotten where I was going with this, Oh yeah, my pants wouldn't fit. So normally I would have been mad at everyone in my house for even breathing (including the cats because I'm sure that secretly somehow I would blame them too because everyone, including the cats, has conspired to make my pants not fit) but, not today. Today I decided to pull out a bigger size pair of pants and be grateful for the fact that I realize I need to do something before this gets farther out of control.

I am grateful for the POINTS plan of Weight Watchers and although I no longer attend meeting, I began counting my points again today. I did 30 minutes on the elliptical. Now, here's another thing the old me would have done. I normally would decide that I am going to work out 5 times a day and and only eat 200 calories a day. Yeah, I know this is stupid. I am 4 classes away from becoming a Dietetic Technician. So, yeah, I KNOW this is stupid. Not only is it unrealistic but, it sets me up to fail because I could never do it. There's a whole other ball of wax. The old me likes to fail. If I fail then I can stuff my face because why not, I have already blown it. So, although I have a plan, and i need a plan, I know that it has to be realistic and I know that if I falter from this plan it does not mean that I failed. It only means that I took "life on life's terms". It only means that I will make the next right choice so that my life does not get out of hand. So ya see, now plan is to fail and I will temporarily several times I'm sure. But when I do I will embrace it and learn from it, and continue my journey. Because now I have your help and I can do this. So, it begins......

Love, Peace, and don't cook with Grease :)